HOW I WANT YOUR DADDY TO BE, KIDS!!
Hey kids, this is your Mumma writing a note from the bottom of her heart. I know it’s kind of too early to write and that too before your birth but thought to pen down my feelings.
Well this is about your father actually!! Yes!! Your Mumma is turning 26 this March Equinox but yet Jobless!! Man less!!
Anyways this is eagerly waiting for your Daddy. Especially when I see couples in my group, your Rachana Aunty and Dharmesh Uncle, your Niky aunt all set ready to walk the aisle, and many others. I feel I want that relationship with someone. And I’m tired of longing.
Today I’m gonna say you about the fantasies which I have regarding your daddy. I want a man with emotional maturity to stay in love with me. I want a man to hold my hand during my lows, who would kiss my forehead and make me serene, who would hug me and my world would end there in his arms, who would reconcile the violence in my heart, who would recognize that my beauty is not just a mask, who would exorcise the demons from my past and who would satisfy the undisclosed desires of my heart.
I would not settle for a boyfriend when I could demand a man friend. I would not lower my standard for that, as I know I’m worthy of better, actually the Best!!
Kids I want him to love me for what I’m and not for my credentials, not for my English fluency, not for my knowledge, but my feelings. Come on!! I’m a human above all!!
Kids I want your Daddy to accept me as I’m, to believe in me, to envision the whole of me, to forgive my mistakes, to give unconditional love, to keep me close to his heart, to make a difference in my life, to never judge me, to quite my fears, to raise my spirit, to tell me the truth when I need to hear it, to understand me, to value me, to walk besides me, to explain me things when I don’t understand, to yell at me when I won’t listen and to zap me back to reality!!
Kids, I want a person who would not be able to live without me, who will not stand if I’m unhappy, who will do anything to make me smile, who would smoothen the ruffled feathers if any, comes across our life and if anything goes off track, he would make all the efforts to bring things back to normal. And above all he should never ever leave me. Never!! Ever!! His heart would beat at the same frequency as mine, and our love will make our two souls as one.
When I would ask him a palmful of love, I want him to give me oceanful of love. All I want is an innocent love which is above degree, status and money. His love should nourish me.. I want only his love which will make me shine brighter than sunshine or make me glow more than neon light.
Kids you might be wandering how is that I didn’t found the love of my life until now. Well let me justify that. Your Mumma was a kind of geek!! A nerd!! Wait not with specs!! I’m blessed that never had to wear glasses. I was more grounded to my family. I had my first crush in second year of my bachelors. Let me tell u a secret that he was the only man for whom your Mumma felled for. Later on I got three proposals but I guess it failed coz they didn’t had the balls to fight for me!! Oops!! Mumma will explain that in person. Kids your Mumma have never been in a long term relation. She has neither celebrated valentine with anyone nor has she celebrated an anniversary. Not a month even!!!
But now I’ve finally learned that unless I demand for R.E.A.L. Love for myself, I’m gonna get seriously hurt out there. Well R.E.A.L. Love means:
R – Responsible
E – Equal
A – Adult
L – Loving
And the day I will know a person like this I will grab him in my arms and never let him go away!!
Kids your Mumma isn’t scared of being alone, but ya I don’t want to end up being alone with the wrong guy for the rest of my life. I’ve faced lot many things in my life, which is filled with grief and indescribable pain. And only my soul does the crying for the baggage which I carry. But now my tears are even dried off!!! I’ve become cold hearted and nothing can break this icy exterior. Kids, the world is beautiful apart from the people who leave us perturbed every now and then. But there are also people who hold you, who keep us upbeat and who care and there lies the real beauty of this world.
But kids, your Mumma never loses hope. All she is seeking for a bond with your daddy which can never be broken. Who will stand by me no matter what it takes, on whom I can count on for a lifetime, who knows me better that I know myself.
“WHO WOULD LOVE ME WHEN I DESERVE IT THE LEAST COZ THAT’S THE TIME WHEN I WOULD NEED HIM THE MOST.”
Kids by now, your Mumma have learnt the spirit of understanding everything and taking it the proper way. And henceforth I enjoy every second of my life, whether it is “Pleasure” or “Pressure”. So now nothing lets me down. I’ve deceived myself enough. Not anymore!! I ‘know, no Messiah is gonna come. I’ve to do my own work. I’ve to be responsible for myself.
Albeit if I turn all cynical I still look for love and marriage. Well kids, that was all about my concept of love. Now moving towards my notion of nuptials. I believe that Marriage is not a word, it’s a sentence. It’s not a deal but big a deal. Each and every pair is made in heaven, and I know in due course your daddy will find me too. Kids one has to keep everything in the book to keep a marriage going. The harmony of it relies on respect, honesty, transparency, compatibility, trust and loyalty. If you have all this, there would be no resentment or suspicion which can ruin the marriage. Actually it’s a fulltime job. Marriage is all about celebrating the differences, than counting similarities. In a nuptial life, there would be times when your daddy and I would not be able to stand each other, but our vows would include loving each other even when we hate each other. One needs to hold the sacredness of that bond.
Kids, your Mumma have been disappointed by many jerks and hypocrites who have made false promises to her. So not any longer would I hold the feelings for such cowards. Your Mumma is not going to settle for anything less than what she ought to have. In order, your daddy has to fulfill few norms before saying “I DO”. Maybe I might sound shallow to you but that is what the world has made me!!
Norms for your Daddy:
Non smoker, non alcoholic, a veggie, possessing a Master’s degree or more and above all a “Gujju” with principles.
I guess I should stop now. Or else I would probably just go on and on. Kids you see I’m a loquacious girl. But before ending I would make a point – “Life is queer with its twists and turns.”
All yours,
Gayatri Jadav.
Wait kids.
The last name will change when
I’ll finally meet your Daddy!!
I know he is on his way.
And he is trying to come to me really as fast as he can!!
All I’ve to do is to be at the right place at the right time!!
